haii been in a lousy mood recently
i really dont know where n when everything has gone wrong
but once again my world seems to have tipped over
i dont know how things have progressed to the way it is now
but im really disappointed
maybe im really plain dumb ba
but up till now i still hope tt im wrong
i still want to give chances
i have told myself repeatedly to control my emotions
this isnt the best time to think abt such stuff
but i cant seem to get rid of those nonsense thoughts
it's really time i have to put it down
put a stop to it and focus on my studies
i have too much to lose

right from the start,is there even any value? maybe our definitions are different. but it's way outrageous. maybe i expected too much. am i just a tool? or a playtoy? or was my choice wrong right from e start.