haii been in a lousy mood recently
i really dont know where n when everything has gone wrong
but once again my world seems to have tipped over
i dont know how things have progressed to the way it is now
but im really disappointed
maybe im really plain dumb ba
but up till now i still hope tt im wrong
i still want to give chances
i have told myself repeatedly to control my emotions
this isnt the best time to think abt such stuff
but i cant seem to get rid of those nonsense thoughts
it's really time i have to put it down
put a stop to it and focus on my studies
i have too much to lose

right from the start,is there even any value? maybe our definitions are different. but it's way outrageous. maybe i expected too much. am i just a tool? or a playtoy? or was my choice wrong right from e start.

bahhhhh im at home now
didnt go sch today cos i just extracted one of my wisdom tooth ytd
e left bottom one
ate medicine,feeling v tired n its still bleeding today la
so didnt go sch lo
hmm it wasnt as pain as i expected
only when the doc inject the anaesthetic then felt some pain but when extracting no pain at all
just tt there was alot of pressure n pulling
yeah v scary but i survived it lol
i brought back my tooth!
haha gonna keep it
its quite big leh
abit xia dao when i say it
maybe next time post e pic here lol
didnt mug at all ytd cos was super tired n drowsy after e extraction
so i shld mug hard today lol
ytd when i reached home n took out the guaze,my whole mouth was filled w blood,so kong bu la
have to eat more iron to replenish e blood i lost haha
anw i think e doc quite good
his skills not bad n he tried v hard to calm me down by constantly talking to me n made me not tt scared
altho will still be v scared la haha
next wk have to go back again to make sure no infection n watever stuff
hai can only eat porridge these few days
even eating porridge is difficult la cos have to shift all food to right side
i think i will be super bored of the tasteless food lol
my left cheek abit swollen but not v visible
hai hope it stops bleeding soon man...i keep tasting blood=x