this was supposed to be a happy entry.
but smth happened
maybe i'll post the intended happy entry few days later
after i get over wat happened

haiz i think im really v useless
i feel damn guilty for my actions
i asked myself is tt wat i really want
and yes,tts wat i want
but due to my actions,i in turn create lots of trouble for ppl
yeah i cant seem to do anything right
i cant seem to make the right decisons
i choose smth and i regret it v soon
my life is such a failure
everything seems wrong
no...everything i do seems wrong

i keep asking myself why i made tt decision
is it cos of my own selfishness?
cos i cant get used to it?
or cos im really not happy there?
but i cant seem to get any ans out of anywhere
i noe im v bad
i dont want to say any more sorry either,
cos the word 'sorry' is just an attempt by me to make myself feel better
and i should feel bad for my actions
the word 'sorry' doesnt help at all too.

i will nvr be able to face them again
but since i have alrdy made this decision,i shall live with it
everything is bottled inside me
but i duno how to let it all out

happiness can be easily obtained
but it can be darn difficult too
now...it isnt mine to be
i hope it becomes mine soon.